Hello everyone. It’s me – yours truly. I am back from about four years of a writing hiatus on this blog because I started writing for Cincinnati Mom Collective, where I wrote about a variety of topics, updating you on life’s happenings. It has been a rough four years, to say the least, but I think I am ready to start writing again, living my life as authentically as I once did.

What has changed since my last post? Everything.

My last post focused on buying alcohol and was written in response to a truly terrible podcast I did with Twiniversity. I was so proud of that damn thing and when I listen to it now, I feel cringy when I listen to how truly sick I was when I talked about buying alcohol. Nonetheless, it is out there in the universe and I have to live with the consequences of outing myself as an alcoholic who attends 12-step recovery.

Why did I stop writing? Life. I went through what felt like a midlife crisis. I left my marriage after mentioning we were seeking counsel (in a previous post). I quicky moved on with someone else and I finally felt free for the first time since the kids were born. Little did I know that this “freedom” was short lived, and I had truly destroyed a family unit. While I think it was ultimately the right decision in the end, I regret the way it happened every single day of my life. I will speak more on this during a later post.

Right now, it is important to mention I will be going slow. I am a completely different person than I used to be and letting the cat out the bag will be a painful, but necessary process. Part of my therapy is through writing and I am OK with sharing it with you, even when it hurts.

As I write, I want you to know that my story has a lot of missteps. While I have learned a great deal in the last four years, I am also humble enough to know that I know little-to-nothing.

Today, my twin girls are six year old’s – which is insane. How did they get that old so fast? My little surprise baby boy is five. I no longer have three under three (as I did when this blog first started). I am a proud mom who struggles with mom guilt and have since the day the girls exited my body. I will dissect this in a future post, but today, just know I am thankful every single day for my children. They make me a better person and I am proud to call them mine.

I am excited to expand further on these topics and more in future posts. Until then, I hope you all have a great week!